Im going shopping tonight with the sister in law & I am so excited! I need to get out of the house, maybe that will make me feel somewhat better. The zoloft seems to be helping a lil more these days, my feelings are pretty numb in all honesty. Im just kinda coasting which is a nice change of pace. I need a break. I have no energy as of the last 3 days. Im talking none, zero, zilich. My back is killing me. One place is not healing from my tubel. Im feeling really down about everything expect for my Dad. Which is kinda wild. I am at somewhat peace with the idea of him passing now but everything else seems to be getting at me. How does that make sense? My weight since getting pregnant is bothering me as well. Things are very strange at the moment. I still miss my Dad, I always will. I know that will never change but I have a peace for the moment. That doesn't mean that I will be ok even ten mins from now but for this moment, Im ok. Im going through some strange times for sure. Sorry if I haven't been as social as normal, just in a weird place. Im here & reading everyone's blog though.