A Mother's worry & fear
I have talked openly about my fears of something being wrong with my baby or something happening. Im pretty sure that all mothers & mother's to be go through this. It's just part of human nature, part of that mothering gene, We will always worry about our young. It is something that I am trying very hard to let God take control of. If something does happen or something is wrong then there isn't a thing I can do about it. She is still my child no matter what. Im just scared. I really thought I had gotten over that but after being out & about & reading all of this stuff. I think we as parents really take for granted the blessing that we are given when we are given "perfect" healthy babies. I am terrified to say the least. And I dont even know if there is anything wrong with her. From sono's & everything she looks perfect but you cant be for sure until a baby is here. I just hate that this is creeping back into my life. I wish I could get peace about this. I wish I didnt worry. I just dont want anything to be wrong with my baby. I dont want to fail her. God has truly blessed us with this sweet baby & I know his will, will be done no matter what. I just wish I could let go & trust. Why is this so hard for me? I am asking you guys out here in blog land to say a prayer for me & this baby. To calm my fears & for her health & well being. Thank you. I love you all.